There are things about my face I hate. My #1 thing I could change about my entire body, if I could, is to get rid of the dark circles around my eyes. They’re not because I’m tired or sick or allergic…they’re just there. They always have been. The first makeup that I wore wasn’t lipstick or eyeliner, it was concealer that I sneakily stole from my mom’s stash. I hate those dark circles. They’re still my biggest makeup challenge (though I have found a makeup that I stand by that works and is nice to my eczema). Oh yeah, and eczema. My mom has it, too, and it’s been pretty bad recently (stress and lack of sleep will do that to you). I’ve gotten it under control in the past couple days, but it has gotten so bad in the past that my eye was almost swollen shut. And that little bump by my eye? No idea what it is; it’s been there since middle school or so. When I was little, people would always talk about my “BIG brown eyes” and I was never sure if that was a good thing or if they were TOO big. But the point is, I thought about it.
So I look at my beautiful little baby girl’s face, and I see what I think might be dark circles. And I feel bad for even thinking/noticing that. And I hope she doesn’t get them. And if she does get them, I’ll give her some darn concealer if she wants it. And when she had baby acne for like 2 weeks, I felt the need to explain it/point it out. The same way I kind of do now with her remaining cradle cap. But she’s beautiful just like she is.
So I took some pictures today after work without makeup and without hair (just to be extra realistic, the bedroom is also a mess behind me. In my defense, Will was off today with the little, and he doesn’t make the bed etc, which is fine but…and also I hate putting away laundry so there’s some on the dresser. /end defense). I washed my face and stood in the best lighting possible and chose the most flattering pics from the bunch I took. Because you know what? Unrealistic goals are unrealistic, but we also can and, I think, *should* choose to present ourselves in the best light (literally? ha) possible. So, you know, two sides to every coin. I don’t photoshop pics of myself, and I even post pics of myself without makeup in general (but uhhh generally at the beach, so nice and tan, and often with sunglasses). I just pick the best ones, because why shouldn’t I?
But I still don’t get why guys don’t have to wear makeup. So there’s that.